Listening to: O Green World-Gorillaz
Aaaaaaaaye, got stuff on me mind that I don't want. A load of wow happened to today, not bull, but wow lol. I dunno even know where to began... guess I can just jump right in right? Ok, why do I have stupid friends? [I mean this in that serious but joking way]. Really, am I the only one with SENSE here...? Then again it's only guys, is this some kind of hoilday for them to loose it? I mean most guys in the world are stupid but this isn't as bad as that, thankfully. [enter random fact: I miss Tazz and Kassi and Gwen and Amanda!] Ok first, my friend boyfriend person [that's what I'll call him, I havn't a clue what we are really] is like pissing me off and making me worry. First he's always cold, literally, so much to the point of passing out but he doesn't live alone... SO lucky i'm not their, I'd be cussing whatever family members he lives with the hell out! It's there fault he's pissing me off! Why? Because we don't talk as much. And I can be a damn selfish person, they're taking his time away from me by not giving a damn! Oh ho, we'd better not meet, they'd have a nice piece of my bitch cake. I don't understand how you can just ignore the fact your bother is freezing to death, sure you hate each other but even if it were me and I hated my sibling I won't wish something like that on them. That's just wrong. Mofo's, they'll get theirs even if it isn't by my hand... Then again I could be overracting [I'm a female duh], it could all be in my little head but I can't help but think it's not. I like helping my friends and if I was there I'd seriously be smoothering him in blankets and holding him, I'd do it for anyone that wanted it. And also I'm starting to think this is a one way street now...-SIGHS-
Second consern, Jon is doubting the fact Aurynn [yes, my take over the world buddy, they're going out] likes him! She's just having trouble talking to him, to me her parents are uber strick! So mean to her, I wish she was on.... -sighs- She's so wonderful! She does like him though, at least that's what I believe, I could be wrong but I doubt it. They used to act so cute together... -smiles- such a cute couple!
Now, third. I have a knack for getting my friends to like me...more then as a friend, ahem. And I have a good habbit of feeling bad if I tell them don't feel the same towards them if they tell me, only friends. If they're a good person I really like hanging with them I'm in deep crap cause then I'll start liking them and that's not good! That's why I ask, if they start to drop hints, do NOT tell me! I worry I'll hurt you and I do NOT want to do that! I'm the one who makes folks smile not sigh and get sad and stuff, I hate the whole rejection thing!
Now my third and a half problem [lol I know]. This guy is such a great friend, he's so kool but trouble follows him everywhere! Trouble + him = bad = he'd always getting hurt [now multiply, divid, add a few more times and subtrace a few more things lol] and that always makes me worry! It's not a good thing! Bad bad bad! I swear! He needs like a body guard or something! lol But anyway... he was hinting that he had feelings for me, I know I know I just didn't want him to tell me! There's a problem with me being told those words, it's like a figgin alarm that goes off in my head! Aaaaaaaye, don't need that! You know how it goes, starting to feel for someone even more you know you're not suppose to becuz you're friends! And I made a promise never to fall in love with a friend again, could CeCeT be doubting herself? Surely not....right? I hate bois, so complicated >>;;;
On a lighter note, my cuz is having a party. I ain't going, not my scene really, not in a partying mood plus we're moving GAH mofo moving all the time.... anywho, gtg now lol.
-vash like again- peace and love! peace and love! peace and love!
[Lost my mind back there somewhere... I love you...]